Sunday, February 26, 2012

Still At It

I am still working on the sad bastard scarf. I wont let myself start another project until it's done. By that time it'll be too hot to wear the damn thing. I guess it will go in the giant bag with everything else.
I am trying to enjoy the mechanics of it- cabling, watching the progress, nice even stitches...but I am not the most patient person in the world so it's kind of a hassle. I can do this! I know I can!
Also, I have been entirely smoke free for six days...before that I slipped a few times, but even though this has been a stressful week I haven't slipped- not even at work. And that's where it's hardest. I hope I can stay strong. It sucks. I am past the itchy annoying feeling of needing a cigarette, and feeling crabby about it finally. I hate that de-tox part. You'd think I'd finally wake up and quit doing this to myself....what a head trip any addiction is. I love it, hate it, wish I'd never started it. I am certain I can quit this time- just have to keep not buying them and staying away from hazardous areas.
I CAN do this. I know I can.

Saturday, February 25, 2012


The scarf is just....eternal! I was thinking last night about starting another project but really, I can't think of anything until it's done. I am sort of obsessed I guess. It is kind of neat looking but if someone knew the pattern I was trying to follow they would laugh their heads off. Instead of tackling all the yarnovers and lace steps I just took the easy way out and cable knit it. It's ridiculous! Ah, well. I'll wear it. Maybe next year. As it's so heavy it will be a cold weather article and we don't seem to be having any of that this year.

Friday, February 24, 2012

Friday Update

Well! I was off three days. All I did was work on the sad bastard scarf...other things too boring to mention. I was rather blue most days, mindful of the upcoming medical circus that is my life.
Finished the Dad Hat and Scarf but now I have an almost superstitious fear of it. How could it be anything but grass green bad luck? I threw it into my knit basket and look at it in disgust now and then.
Panda hat...not so great. The eyeholes are not right. I keep thinking I ought to break the yarn off and try something else. It's tying up my size 6 hat knitters....but I wait, maybe until inspiration grabs me.
Back to work today, and I guess I'm ready for it. I don't know. I added my Twitter tweets to this page, so I'll try and keep it more craft oriented and less bitching about things. Besides, knitting is the most important part of my life.
Haven't had a cigarette and I do feel better. But we'll see, when I get back to work. I hope I don't cave to pressure. It doesn't do any good. I keep telling myself that, then I'll buy a pack of Marlboro shorts. Must....stay....strong....

Saturday, February 4, 2012


I have three projects- maybe four- in progress. That's just dumb.
The scarf, which is a sad bastard of a conglomeration I am just plugging at. The panda hat....I fear this will be a real disappointment. The Dad hat, which had some major issues with the top cabling (It fell apart) and a random dad scarf I have only found part of when I reorganized my knitonia. The yarn is so ratty it will be a miracle if I create anything.
Sick as a dog yesterday- and ironically enough got a call from the gastroenterologist's office about the colonoscopy. Which was timely. If I hadn't felt so bad I never would have called back. But it might save my life. WTF. Like I care some days.
Also have the Ultrasound on the 14th and must follow up with Thompson. Dammit! Dammit all! I can't stay away from doctors. I think the problem is a conjunction of both the cyst and my awful intestines. Dammit again I say!