Covid

I tested positive yesterday and wasn’t surprised. I felt it.

I takes a worldwide pandemic for me to get New Years Eve off.

So far it feels like a cold- prickly lungs and stuffy nose and MASSIVE headache. Body aches are an everyday thing but may be worse.

I feel pretty awful

Trying

Maybe I can keep knitting a little at a time

DressForm

Haven’t named her yet. Once I got her adjusted I gave her a big hug. 

Had to dress her.

Racheal and Liam

I made hats with big pom-poms for these two beauties

Dummy

I ordered a dress form today and a couple patterns. I have always wanted a dress dummy but now it’s probably one of those too little too late things.

I am almost unable to knit anymore. It breaks my heart because I loved it so much.

I have been sad lately- sadder than usual. I feel like it’s the time of year and bad anniversaries and COVID. I do think being able to make a good costume would cheer me up. And I love to sew! 

Maybe I can still do that 

Hands

And my shoulder

Both have made me slow down my knitting 

I don’t do much of anything 

I am taking up sleeping instead 

Barkers

 Hats for the shop working on the Warlock

That You Rona?

Temp of 102.5 and I am nauseous as hell

Waiting at the 31st and Garnett for my COVID test

Arthur-Itis

I knew my hands would start acting up. But September 8th I pulled the covers over me in bed and  probably tore my  right rotator cuff. That hurts almost as much as my gall bladder in 2002. The shoulder, down down down to my forearm. My neck. 

And then I had a root canal.

Idiot. 

Oh well!

Red And White

There it is

Argyle

I love this pattern and found a little easier way to learn it. I love knitting so much! My hands really start to bother me on decreases but I will do it as long as I can. 

Rib Stitch

Working on the same pale purple yarn in a hopefully bigger hat. 

Stabbing headache in my forehead over my left eye and it makes me think oh jeez I bet it’s a stroke. But I am knitting ok so...maybe not.

This time. LOL

Stunned

Brett Cathey died yesterday at 44.  I can’t wrap my head around it.

Life just sucks.

Lavender and Pale Pink

Sounds better than it looks.

Funny

I have been fiddling around with a hat and it’s slow going. The old man turned on the overhead light as if to help but then just kept casting an irritated look at the lamp. Finally I say hey just turn it off the glare is killing me. He thought I meant the glare of the lights. I meant his glare. Lol!!!

He has a pathological dislike of me knitting. Sit there tying knots. Ha!

I have been abnormally tired lately. There is nothing good on TV my days off so I just sleep all the time. I am social distancing from myself. 

Retired

I am giving my obsession a break. I overdid it on lockdown and feel like I pretty much burned myself out. 

Until better times!

Friday

And I knitted a row or two on this cabled hat

Better?

I don’t know if I am the only person in the world who tries to figure out what caused their misery or not but I had a running list of what could have gotten me into this fix. The top contenders were old age and hard work. There quickly followed things like... my shoes. My belt. My sedentary three months followed by work. You name it. 

And I haven’t been knitting since I came back to gainful employment. Only thing I have done is learn how to knit an icord. Fun fun!

But for now I am better. Fingers crossed.

But Fancy misses me

Regular (Warning: TMI)

This morning I could feel the normal pain in my left side. Hadn’t registered in a week. Over a week. I can stand up straight and limping on the left like old times.

This has been a rollercoaster of pain. Getting up the stairs after work? Epic! Never have I felt so bad, shaking and sweating Ike some kind of hype. All because of the pain. No meds would touch it. And my bladder? I have got to start wearing a diaper if this doesn’t clear up. Rolling over in bed and it’s pee everywhere! 

Self diagnosing is like being your own lawyer. 

But do you go to the doctor for everything? Every twinge??

Ah Grace. I miss you already. Our last words were I love you. And I did love her. If I can hobble to her viewing I will. 

She meant so much to me. I am afraid I can’t say goodbye to her today. 

This has fer sher been TMI but it’s been a real revelation to me. I was used to the pain on my left side and couldn’t even fathom what was going on.

And worse? I haven’t touched my knitting in a week. There’s something about it that I have to not be in agony to do it I guess.

Same

This morning it was exactly the same.  Unable to stand up straight.

This is the worst and my worst nightmare. It’s not something easy and it’s never going to go away and I am never going to feel good again.

Well I may not be too far off.

The Xrays of my poor old back! Bone spurs and flattened discs and arthritis. Misalignment and visible torment. It looks how I feel

I keep thinking of how many times my back as been in screaming agony and I just kept going and doing.

The hell!!! 

Plus I ordered a chair while I was high in tramodol. 

How My Mind Works

So I knew from hard experience that it’s kidneys- or suspected it strongly. And went to be healed. And yet....

Last night when I felt no better I kept thinking what if it’s not what I think. What if it never goes away? Well give it time...get into nap mode mostly because I am exhausted. This sucks. Sunday morning there is NO CHANGE and I still couldn’t roll over in bed. 

That’s it I am dying.

Internet says a shot and antibiotics could take a day or two.   Nobody got time for that. 

Nauseous, super grouchy, hobbling like an ancient crone... can’t stand up straight which the old man can’t understand how bent in half is actually better. 

So I think we’ll damn and take a Naprosen and pray.

Now 24 hours after the shot and a naprosen I feel... not so much better as I think I am mildly improved and on the right track. 

Ahhhhh... the relief of sitting up straight and taking a deep breath.

As long as I don’t move fast I am ok. I think I can work as long as I don’t have to run too much.

I will give it til noon.

I did not work but hopefully will be able to tomorrow. I have never felt so bad. Praying I am on the mend

Treated

Got a shot. 

Maybe I will live

Kidneys

At least that’s what I think it is. If it’s still bad tomorrow I will go to urgent care. Can’t stand up straight and I am super puffy. 

We shall see

App

I got sick of looking for my blog and decided to use the app. I figure the time it saves will be helpful.

I am unproductive and grumpy. I hate everything and don’t feel like knitting even 

What is wrong with me?

I’ll tell you what’s wrong. It’s having to work. Haha!

New Blogger

I hate trying anything new.

Thinking Thoughts

I have hardly touched my knitting since going back to work. Maybe I needed a little bitty break.
On the upside it’s a delight to be able to bend and move without tight clothes....lol. I have been struggling in my uniforms for years. YEARS!
So nice to bend over and not nearly barf.
I am reminded of Dick Solomon 3rd Rock from the Sun and his tenure in Fat Losers....how do you solve the problem? Bigger clothes. Simple!
I worked on the snow leopard a bit this morning, switching patterns right in the middle. As is my wont. I am pathetic and feeling uncommonly honest at the moment.
Getting back to work after this whole mess...ugh it has been daunting. I look forward to retirement but only with a lot of money.
I am having to learn everything all over again and figure out what to do with birthdays. Today will be the day I start working on the belated...I got my future June’s in the mail and plans for upcoming next week.
Looked at job posting and there were 12. There are usually HUNDREDS and the sight of those dozen sad little entry positions? Sad.
I am grateful for my work and the living it affords me. But rich would be nice.
I could buy solid gold knitting needles.

Rescued

Thank GOD I don’t have to work at Ft Gibson. What a blessing! I am so relieved and happy that even my heart palpitations are a good thing!
Still knitting a couple leopard prints...jeez I don’t know if I am cut out for that many colors. I am working on a plain old cabled hat.
And what could be going on in my sewing room?

But that is for a different blog!

Aaaaaand Then

The party was over. I am sad because apparently when I have money I like doing nothing.
I go to work tomorrow for a meeting and then I am going to be shipped to other casinos for their opening. Dreading that

The first one is a snow leopard print in progress. The rest are just rando hats.
Gah!!! I am getting nervous. At least my clothes will fit. If I had to squeeze into my old uniforms I would die

HataMania

BadAss Knitter

I have three hats on needles right now, two I just finished and a pile I haven’t got decent pictures of.
I am trying snow leopard print and it’s going..eh.
Honestly this picture is one of the best taken in years. Much grater and blotchier and more double chin most of the time. Maybe my camera is smudged or dirty or something.
As the old man pointed out this may be the last Monday I get off ever. So, I hope to enjoy it

Funny

I guess a lifetime of equating being good with being quiet and not wanting anything has made me ideal for a coronavirus lockdown. I have knitted a couple dozen hats and things. Napped like it was a full time job.
I don’t have family or friends and I suppose I am glad of it. I am ok by myself. And the greatest compliment I can give my husband is he is just like being alone.

Gloomy

I miss Chloe so

Even with all this other crap I have going on I am missing her.
No creature on earth looked at me the way she did.
I love Fancy and Angus but I miss my girl

Knitting Thoughts

Knitting has been a great hobby for me. It’s quick easy and portable. You can do it anywhere. Of course it seems to drive those closest to me completely insane but I figure that’s going to happen anyway: everything I do is annoying.
I have made it so far through the lockdown with the yarn I had on hand- miles of it Thank God! And all the friends who get me yarn.  I am dreaming of starting the famous colorwork pattern ICEHOUSE and yearn to try something so difficult...I think I can do it if I take my time but I am pretty sure I will need the chart printed out. I have a beige and dark wine combo that would work except the heft of the yarn is thicker in the wine.
Honestly with the way things have gone the last decade or so this is really the only happiness I get. Blame it on isolation and enforced laziness but that’s how I feel.

Anyway I have enjoyed it and it’s kept my hands and mind busy and saved my sanity. And these have helped!

Many Many Things

Well with the coronavacation stretching to 2 months I have done a lot of stuff. Worked in my sewing room so I can actually sew in it. Knitted a LOT. Here some of them are

CoronaVacation

For someone who is a total workaholic who never misses a day this enforced time off is just ridiculous! Ugh!
I will eventually get pics of the hats and kitty sweater I have done.
I was off Wednesday and Thursday and this is the first real day of quarantine.
Boring!

Houndstooth Check

Well you know you’re getting old when you have crooked pics in your blog posts.
I love this pattern though and will do it again

Hugely Huge

I don’t think it will work which is a shame I love the combining colors.

And good job getting the picture stuck sideways

Pink Hearts

I love this pattern. I am going on to my last Stockyard  hat now going to do black and white

Hats

I was volunteered to make hats for the vet clinic and I have two finished. Three more to go. I got Racheal's baby blanket done and am about to start hat #3

Grim

This has already been a rotten year. My best girl Chloe was diagnosed with cancer in December of last year and we had to put her to sleep 1/23/20.
It was so painful and I am still struggling with the losses piling up.
She was my sweetest friend.

She broke my heart. She was the first puppy I chose and she was all mine. She never left my side.
I have two dogs and a cat left. Yes they are great but Chloe was my heart.

I am knitting hats for the Vet Clinic .
I suppose it's keeping me busy but I am feeling so bereft.