Why I Bother

I knitted a hat sort of following a pattern and feel rather ambivalent about it. I'll get a pic here shortly. Still working on the second half of the 'poncho throw.'
I suppose I did learn a few things from the pattern hat...I don't know if I am capable of learning anything new...but it takes 100 stitches on my tiny needles to make a decent diameter hat...then the increases brought it to 140. And it does seem a little sad to me that these are things of interest!

I'm about to start one in neutrals. Maybe.. I love the rib stitch, and have done this before long ago. It was a good experience and I did learn a lot.