Worst Day Ever

I can say that with truth. Ember, my 20 year old Persian is in bad shape. I keep hoping and praying for some kind of miracle but I don't see one coming. I always swear I wont ever let one of my animals suffer but I seem to do it to every one of them. Selfish to hang on this way, but so hard to let go. My poor baby! It's made me sick. I have to take her in, it's not right to let her go on this way. She hasn't eaten since day before yesterday and she's not drinking now..I can't let this happen but I remember Bug's grandma saying never put any animal down as there is a miracle in store....ugh. No miracle. I can't do this to a pet who has been my constant companion since I was 25 years old. It's wrong and I've got to be strong enough for both of us......................
I am sorry to report the highly anticipated miracle wasn't to be. Had to let her go. It hurts so much. I couldn't let her go on the way she was. Nothing seems good right now.

Sunday Morning

It's been a long week for me. I have several things planned. I somehow cannot imagine any of it turning out well! I just have to get through an 8 hour shift! Surely I can do that.

At loose ends

The need of a new project is lurking in the wings. I am needing to sew a couple things, and the knitting, while absorbing....well I'm just bad. No two ways about it. As much time as I've spent doing this you'd think I would be better. Ah, practice.

Doctors

We're blessed in our family doctor. He's been seeing me since I was 25 or so. I depend on him so much. I hope he can help Bug feel better. I don't know. Things seem so bleak right now. I am trying to keep focused on something besides worry and misery. Knitting helps. I am also praying a lot.
Upside, met a really interesting woman at the doctor's who crochets. We talked a lot about color and yarn. She was super nice and I'll be emailing her so we can exchange yarnwork info!

Yellow Scarf

I knitted a yellow scarf- I love yellow and this one turned out ok. Thelma liked it. I test wore it (it's for someone else but I had to try it out) and spilled a carmel latte all over the damn thing. Immediately rinsed it and it all came right out, then had to carry a damp scarf all night. Great. But the on the round project is doing fair, and I am determined to keep at it.

Fellow Sufferer

My best friend has quit smoking. I can fully sympathize with her! IT SUCKS! But it's totally worth it. In the long run not being chained to that evil is both liberating and empowering. Slave no more, free from the shackles of an industry of death and lies!

Knitting on the Round

This is something new for me and I'm not doing very well with it. Three times I had to unravel it because of twisting- something the instructions warned about- but now I have it straight, I think, and my cowl is on the way. I am inspired to try a cowl and a muff, both things that if you tell someone you work with what you are doing they either stare as if you've lapsed into Greek or snicker as though "muff" is something dirty.
Anyway, I keep going. I am enjoying new things, which is pretty good for someone my age. I think my hope is that, in the dead of a cold winter when I walk around swathed in my own knitwear, someone will say, oh where did you get that great scarf? I made it!
Of course I'm the type of person who will walk up and ask about something a total stranger is wearing. Cute shoes! Is that scarf knit or crochet? I can't help it. And sometimes people aren't completely in love with a stranger coming up to ask questions. They seem to understand I'm not quite normal.